Earn Money
This is a lyric from Kanye West’s song Good Life that
immediately came to my mind.For me, money isn’t everything, but I know
how it can make life shitty without it. I remember living in a homeless
shelter. I would walk past stores and see people buying food. I could
only look at the food. I didn’t have the money to afford to eat. It
completely sucked being in that situation.Now, I have money in my
pocket. I can eat at any place that I choose. I recently went to a
smoothie shop. I ordered a smoothie and vegan chocolate chip cookie. It
felt great being able to waste almost $8 bucks on these items and tip
$1.Later on, I went to a southern cuisine restaurant that is buzzing on
social media due to the fact it’s owned by a famous person from a
reality show. I ate their fried chicken meal with macaroni and cheese,
collard greens, and Kandi yams. I only drank water. The meal ended up
costing $20 bucks and $4 for the tip.In both instances, it felt
absolutely wonderful being able to have money. I didn’t have to be the
person looking at other people consuming food and wondering exactly how
it tasted. Money gave me access to solving this riddle.Money is simply a
tool that can open doors. It keeps my smartphone on. It allows me to
purchase a seat on the bus to go to Nashville next month. It buys my
shoes, deodorant, dish washing soap, lotion, toothpaste, medication,
U.S. Passport, Atlanta Dream season tickets, and so many other necessary
and not so necessary items.I’ve tried to use money to replace love and
friendship. I discovered that it cannot make someone love you or care
about you. It won’t prevent you from feeling loneliness. Spending money
on prostitutes only lead to emptiness for me. There’s nothing better
than being with someone that you don’t have to pay to be in your life.
I’m not just talking about sex workers. I’m applying that to family and
friends. You want people in your life that love and appreciate you for
you. You don’t want them in your life simply for your things.I know what
it feels like to live with and without money. I learned that living
with money makes your life easier. You don’t worry as much about how you
are going to pay for something. If you need it, you simply go and get
it. I remember when I would lose money in my pockets and find it weeks
later.In fact, I lost a $20 bill in my pocket. I happened to be at the
gas station when I discovered it. The gas station attendant looked at me
and said, “You didn’t even know you had that money in your pocket. I
can tell by the way you were puzzled to see it. You must lose money and
forget about it all of the time. I wish I had that problem.” I could
only smile and agree with him. I made $700 per week after taxes. I was a
single guy without a care in the world.I also know what it feels like
to live without money. I had to learn how to adapt to my circumstances
in the men’s shelter. I quickly began to talk to the men and find out
what they did to eat. I discovered many places that fed homeless people
for free. In addition, on the weekends, I would work in the shelter’s
kitchen and eat really well. I learned how to get around Atlanta on the
transportation system. I discovered how to keep my clothes clean. I
still have these skills.I am bipolar. I sometimes experience extreme
mania and extreme depression. In addition, this is often coupled with
anxiety, panic attacks, self hatred, self love, and grandiose opinions
of myself. I lack control over these mood swings. There isn’t any amount
of money that would take this mental health condition away from me. If I
could buy it away, I would. However, I know that isn’t a reality.I
would love to have a close relationship with my family. Unfortunately, I
do not believe that my family wants to understand me. They simply want
me to be what they want me to be. I will never meet their expectations.
But family is definitely more than money. If you have it, hold on to it
and cherish it.I’ve never been the type of person to have true friends
in real life. I have plenty of associates, but I’ve never had close
friendships with people. I have family members that have really awesome
friendships with people from high school and university. I don’t have
this in my life. I definitely know friendship is way more important than
money.
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